A year ago, actor Nick Cordero lost his battle with COVID-19, dying on July 5, 2020 from complications after contracting the virus. He was only 41 years old.
And a year later, his widow, Amanda Kloots, continues to struggle with grief and find a way to understand and cope with her loss. Her latest effort is an Instagram post of videos and photos featuring Cordero, herself and their 2-year-old son, Elvis, honoring the anniversary of her death, calling their marriage her “Nick era”:
“One year”, she wrote in the caption. “Today it hurts, there is no other solution. A year ago you left us and you became our angel in heaven. You were surrounded by so much love and Led Zeppelin was playing on Spotify – it was definitely your fault, not mine. “
She continued, “What happened was unthinkable, losing you was my biggest fear. I was telling you all the time, ‘Don’t you dare go anywhere. If I lost you, I don’t know what I would do. ‘There hasn’t been a day this year that you haven’t been missed, thought about and talked about. Thank you for being our Guardian Angel, for sending me signs, for being my DJ in Heaven. “
Nick Cordero was a Broadway actor (Waitress, Rock of ages) who earned a Tony nomination for his role in Balls on Broadway. Him and Kloots, 39, dancer and fitness instructor (and since his death, co-host on View) married in 2017, and Elvis was born in 2019. He contracted COVID last March and spent three months fighting it. His lungs were “severely damaged,” Kloots said on Instagram in April 2020, and Cordero’s right leg eventually had to be amputated due to blood clots, dying a few months later.
Since then, Kloots has dedicated himself to speaking about himself in public as often as possible, to help keep his memory alive. In June, she revealed a rainbow tattoo she got that reminded her of their family; she promoted her book “Live Your Life: My Story of Loving and Losing Nick Cordero” on Today, saying, “I know Nick would like me to go ahead”, and told the New York Times that she is “determined to keep her voice alive.”
In her Instagram post today, she added: “We only had a few short years together but they were filled with so much love, laughter, adventure, dreams, change and growth. It was my ‘era Nick’ and I will have this forever. “
Famous friends commented, “I think of you today and hold you so close. I love you,” Jennifer Love Hewitt wrote. “I send you so much love,” added Ashley Tisdale.
Kloots also made sure to highlight the first song played on the anniversary video footage, saying it was called “A Few Stars Apart” and was by “The Amazing” Lukas Nelson.
“The lyrics are so beautiful but the lyrics in the second verse touch me every time,” she wrote, then quoted the key lines: “And it’s hard not to hold you back / But I’m still on the ground / The light I miss you gave me / I miss your sound of love / A night will never pass / Forget the stars in the sky. “